Do you ever tell anyone about your decision?
Do you ever tell anyone about the reason behind your decision?
Do you ever tell anyone about the stories behind every reason for your decision?

I've told.
And now I understand.

Why some people feel regretted that they've told me their decision or life stories. I just won't understand why they made that decision, good nor bad ones. And I know lots of comments and judgement from myself starts.

I realize that I never walked in their shoes before. I will never know what they have been through.
This is the truth. This is the reality. Even if I have chosen the same path they have walked in. It will be different. Same start but different experience. No matter how I want to understand, I will never ever will.

Don't try to understand everything. Because sometimes it's not meant to be understood, but to be accepted.  - Unknown

I always dreamt of another kind of life. It is not a good and easy life. Not that I don't appreciate my life now, I just want to try another kind of life.

I've never struggled in life before. Everything has been prepared, and nothing to be worried. I don't need to think of having shortage of food. I don't need to think I will have to beg people for money. I don't need to think of paying bills and so on.

I came to realize some people decided to choose suicide as a solution because that is the easiest way out. Once you died, you don't need to think of it any more, isn't it?
I also scared one day I will choose that kind of path. I've been living and taking easy way out. If I don't have a strong fundamental of thinking, what if I face a big problem? A very big problem?. I know the answer, I will keep on choosing easy way out and running away and avoiding problems. I know. I'm in my own shoe. I know myself well.

Most of the people I asked came from that kind of life I wanted. They say its a difficult path. Lots of struggle need to pass through. Most of them said, why don't take easy path to continue? or another one said, Between two roads, one with jam and another one without jam, which would you choose?

Honestly, I will say "I will choose the one with easy path, the road without jam"

But then, do you ever ask yourself...?
1. You will have another experience which other people won't have it for the rest of their lives
2. After you struggle, you won't think of easy way out every time you face a problem.

Probably the road is jam. But maybe you can enjoy a beautiful scenery that the other way doesn't
Probably you will need to struggle a lot. But after that, you have experienced something which not many people have gone through before.

I really appreciate all the comments and thoughts. Most of them is not supportive towards my decision.  But I will take it as a strength and encouragement. Strength to work towards it and Encouragement to stay strong while walking this path. Thank you so much.

I don't know whether I have chosen the right path. But I know everyone will experience this in their life. I might choose a wrong one, but that is a part of learning. A life experience that shall be learned and not repeated in the future.

One decision;
Hundreds of reasons;
Thousands of stories.

Don't judge before you know the stories behind a reason. You won't understand some decisions because some things are not meant to be understood, but to be accepted.

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